Here are a couple key documents showing a direct link between my notification against my pedo-rapist Dr. Antony Kidman on 7 August 2014, and his death 36 days later on 12 September 2014.
Nicole Kidman’s own security team told the Australian press that Kidman had been placed on immediate suicide watch following my notification, and that his daughter Nicole Kidman had adopted a “Scientology approach to managing Fiona.” This approach included hiring mercenaries to stalk, tailgate, & harass me. There have been a series of death threats against me and my family, and attempts on my life.
Here is the letter from the NSW Psychology regulatory authority acknowledging receipt of my notification against Antony Kidman to Australia’s federal health practitioner regulatory authority called AHPRA.
And here is the notice from the NSW Health Care Complaints Commission saying the case against Dr Antony Kidman was closed because he had died mid-investigation.
This article will provide a brief overview of what a decade of effective therapy taught me about treating trauma and dissociation. These methods are not taught in university mental health training programs. Here is the understanding I synthesised from many years of university study, a decade of intense and productive therapy, and my memories of being a victim of extreme abuse at the hands of secret societies and military intelligence. This encompasses MK-Ultra, MK-Delta, ritual abuse, and mind control.
Trauma-Based Forced Dissociation
I coined the term Trauma-Based Forced Dissociation (TBFD) in 2019 to describe the conditioning stemming from ritual abuse and mind control techniques that the military and secret societies perpetrate against child subjects. Underpinning my proposed diagnosis of TBFD, my Dissociation of Learning Trauma Model explains the neurobiology of trauma and dissociation.
TBFD is systematically induced in the developing brain via applied classical and operant conditioning, and attachment theory. A standardised protocol of unethical hypnosis, sensory deprivation, torture, spinning, psychopharmacology, and rape is applied to the child from the earliest age. This creates a complex system of physically compartmentalised memories, experiences, personality traits, and abilities that may be triggered on command.
TBFD is distinct from recognised psychiatric diagnoses contained within the DSM and ICD. DID or Complex-PTSD typically organically result from repeated extreme developmental trauma events. It is normal for the brain to dissociate, repress memory, and fragment under sufficient stress. The result is a relatively small system of dissociated parts.
The military industrial complex studied this natural dissociation phenomenon under laboratory conditions, via MK-Ultra scientists, and weaponised it into the Western child soldier program called MK-Delta. Unlike DID, TBFD is a manufactured system of potentially hundreds and thousands of dissociated parts designed to perform certain tasks.
Military and esoteric understanding of brain anatomy and physiology differs from what is taught in modern psychology, psychotherapy, psychiatric, and even neuroscience training programs. The answers to what was done to military child victims, and how to undo the damage, are found in decades old, military-funded research publications. That research focused on hypnosis and psychedelics to begin with. It soon incorporated decades of studies into hemispheric lateralisation, sensory deprivation, mental imagery, EEG readings of brain activity, neurofeedback, electrocution, sexual perversion, and torture.
Dissociation of Learning Trauma Model
My theory underpinning TBFD is steeped in decades old state-dependent learning research. State-dependent learning was originally called “dissociation of learning.” It describes a phenomenon where whatever happens whilst in a dissociative state (altered state of consciousness) will be forgotten until the subject is returned to that original state.
Understanding this requires a fundamental comprehension of hemispheric lateralisation. Knowledge of hemispheric lateralisation is also essential to understanding the neurobiology of trauma and dissociation and why certain therapy techniques work.
The brain is divided into two halves – the left and right hemispheres – that are joined via a massive bundle of neurons called the corpus callosum. Each brain hemisphere performs different tasks and stores memory differently. The left side is auditory-sequential, is involved in simple language and math tasks, cannot process empathy, and anger is its only emotion. The left relies on repetition, or rote learning, for knowledge and skill acquisition. The left brain is verbal and gives context (a time, date, place stamp) to experiences, resulting in conscious or explicit memories that you can verbally and freely discuss. Importantly, the left brain is responsible for critical judgement and comparing sensory data against existing memory banks.
The right hemisphere is visual-spatial and responsible for more complex language and math tasks. The right brain prefers a wholistic, visual, and emotionally and somatically engaging approach to learning. The right brain also processes information inter-dimensionally. It learns and stores memory implicitly, at a non-conscious level. Hence the right brain is the seat of classical and operant conditioning, and it responds to subconscious cues or triggers like the smell of food, or the infamous Jaws movie score.
Military researchers referred to the left as the ‘dominant hemisphere’ and the right as the ‘non-dominant hemisphere.’ This is because during everyday normal activity the left brain is dominant while the right hums in the background. But that does not mean the right hemisphere stops functioning in its non-dominant state. It simply continues operating below the surface of consciousness. There it, fuelled by emotion, overrides conscious will and executes conditioned responses. Thus, fear of spiders, and emotional overeating will defeat reasoning every time until their triggers are exposed and extinguished.
During trauma events, the amygdala fear response is hyperactivated and the hippocampus suppressed. Trauma-experience sensory input bypasses left-brain contextualisation and is stored indefinitely as raw sensory data in the right hemisphere – like undigested food particles. When the trauma victim encounters a reminder of their trauma, this triggers a flashback, or a sensory re-experiencing of the incident. The person’s left brain will search the immediate environment for the source of the sensory input, and mistakenly time-place-date stamp that as the cause. So, the left brain identifies a barking dog, nagging spouse or yelling kids as the source of irritation.
Certain stimuli can bring the right hemisphere into dominance. There exist two types of arousal methods: high versus low. High arousal methods overwhelm the nervous system; these include being yelled at, verbally abused, loud rock music, religious revival meetings, torture, tribal dancing to loud drumming, and discordant music. Low arousal methods include hypnosis, trance, the twilight state, low chanting, low rhythmic drumming, and visualisation.
These low and high arousal methods induce an altered state of consciousness. Therefore, an ASC occurs when the right hemisphere is made dominant. The more the right brain comes forward and the left is suppressed, the deeper the ASC. Hooking a subject up to an EEG machine enables the observer to determine which stated of consciousness they are in.
Our brainwaves can fire at different speeds depending on how alert we are. These firing rates are categorised, from slower to faster, as Delta, Theta, Alpha, Beta, and Gamma. Beta characterises a normal alert state. The slower the brain fires, the closer the brain moves toward a trance state, or an ASC. Alpha serves as the gateway to a trance state, induced in the therapy setting by progressive muscle relaxation and deep breathing. Theta indicates a trance state, while Delta is indicative of deep trance.
To access memories stored in the implicit (unconscious) memory system, and process trauma memories, a number of things must occur, including the following:
The right hemisphere must be made dominant, and the left’s critical thinking capacity be suppressed.
The hippocampus must be stimulated, so that the raw sensory data can be contextualised by the left brain before being stored into long-term conscious memory.
The memory engram must be activated or triggered, which may occur by simply discussing it.
The trauma memory must be sufficiently activated; this is achieved by simultaneously engaging as many of the sensory modalities that were activated at the time of the trauma event.
The emotion must be stripped from the trauma memory.
A novel learning (aka, a prediction error, or an element of surprise) must occur during processing of the trauma event. This might entail realising a surprising fact about the situation, like the child was not responsible for what happened. Or the client might visualise a different ending to the trauma event that completes whatever action the victim wishes they could have at the time.
Therapy techniques capable of facilitating this process include:
Hypnosis
EMDR
Clay Field Therapy
Art Therapy
Guided visualisation
Neurofeedback
Somatic therapies
Brain-spotting
David Grande’s bilateral music.
The Safe and Sound Protocol can be a useful adjunct. This basically works by tightening the eardrum so that the brain shifts focus from low frequency predator sounds to being able to detect the high frequency sounds of voice prosody characteristic of say a soothing mother’s voice.
It is more effective to combine several of these modalities at once. For instance, after 10 years of engaging in these therapies, I achieved the final phase of parts integration during a single therapy session in which I combined EMDR, Clay Field Therapy, bilateral music, and eyes-closed visualisation.
This summary is from my book, THE FIGHT TO REMEMBER: Trauma-Based Forced Dissociation & the Western Child Soldier Program, that I have been writing.
I have come under an orchestrated series of threats and attacks for exposing my Nazi step/grandparents Peter and Helen (aka Helena) Holowczak and their MK-Ultra pedophile connections. One of these attacks was launched by low-IQ cult scum who tried to discredit my testimony by saying my family are not related to Helen Holowczak. Their main source of ‘evidence’ is my grandmother’s gravestone which excludes the names of my father and his children. So, here a few documents to disprove their lies.
Firstly, my father Mitek Frank Holowczak was cut out of his mother’s will at the last minute by his two half-brothers. He went to court and won his share of Helen Holowczak’s house at 14 McAlister Avenue. The brothers told the courts Helen’s house sold for 500k, when in fact it sold for 600k. So my father was further done out of a third of the difference.
Not surprisingly, my father and his seven children were not listed on Helen’s gravestone, since the two half-brothers are the ones who arranged the funeral and the headstone. Duh.
So, here is evidence that my father is Helen Holowczak’s son, that he resided at 14 McAlister Avenue Engadine, and that David and John Holowczak are indeed his half-brothers. (Click on the photos for a closer view.)
This is the electoral roll record stating Helen and Peter Holowczak lived at 14 McAlister Ave Engadine in 1977.
2. Here is my father’s Australian issued birth certificate. Helen lied to my father about who his real father was, and he first discovered the truth when he was 40 years old. My father subsequently obtained his original birth certificate from Germany which records Mitek Rylko as his father.
Note the Holowczak’s family address on my father’s Australian birth certificate is recorded as 14 McAlister Ave, and his mother is Helen (Helena) Holowczak, nee Milewska.
3. Here are photos of my father as a baby and toddler with his ‘mother’ Helen (kidnapper?) and pedophile step-father Peter Holowczak, in the refugee camps:
4. Here is a photo of my father seated with his mother Helen Holowczak, and half-brother David Holowczak at my childhood home in Terranora:
5. Here is a picture of my father visiting his real father, Mitek Rylko (after whom he was named), and one of his half-brothers, in Poland:
6. Here is a photo of me posing with my real grandfather in Poland in 1990. Respected anti-Nazi WW2 soldier.
7. And here is a picture of me, my siblings and parents at my brother’s wedding in 1996 (I am bridesmaid), plus a photo of my father with his second half-brother in Poland:
8. And of course there are the emails and voice recordings John Holowczak got reprimanded for. He sent them to my IA editor David Donovan from his Wollongong Council work email system. Albeit as defamatory and creative as the latest attack on my credibility, in these my half-uncle admits to being related to me, names my family members, and admits to my telling him at a family meeting in 1991 that I was raped by Peter Holowczak as a child:
Next time, put your efforts into researching who John and David’s real fathers are, because – like John and David told my family and I during the meeting in 1991 – it wasn’t Peter Holowczak. At least my father found his real father. Mitek Rylko was a handsome, intelligent, respected member of the community, who didn’t rape and kill kids, and who fought for the resistance instead of slaughtering Christians, Jews, and disabled kids in the concentration camps. His father was a violin teacher, and that’s where my father and siblings got our musical brilliance from.
Research hint: Nanna always named her kids after their fathers. Since John Holowczak is the only bald, ginger-headed member of the family, start looking in the direction of the Scottish dude named John Vicars who ‘supervised’ Helen at the Marrickville woollen mills. And as for David, Helen was going to name him ‘Romance’ – so good luck finding that one. Nanna was a notorious Nazi whore who regularly attended those famous migrant orgies.
If only I weren’t related to the vile Holowczaks! As you can see surmise, my father inherited his high IQ from Mitek Rylko.
This is the last time I respond to this dumb shit. Anyone who attacks me has a vested interest in covering up ritual abuse and child sex trafficking.
Prince Andrew was Chairman of the NSPCC’s (National Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Children) FULL STOP campaign, with benefactor Nicole Kidman in 1999. Nicole Kidman is referenced 66 times in the Epstein files.
There are 66 references to Nicole Kidman in the Epstein files. Here is an email exchange dated 2010, two years after Epstein was convicted of soliciting a child. The sender tells Jeffrey Epstein: “I’m with Nicole now,” to which the convicted pedophile responds: “Call me.”
The Tom Barrack Connection
A particularly revealing email chain from October 2010 shows billionaire Tom Barrack writing to Epstein: “U and I need to talk about Nicole!!! I am just being smart and considerate of her! Where r u tomorrow! I am in Dubai” []. This suggests discussions about Kidman were occurring between Epstein and Barrack,
Fiona Barnett 
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